Angels Fall First [FanFiction, English]

Characters: Sirius, Andromeda
Genre: Hurt/Comfort
Raiting: PG
Warnings: Lievää uskonnollisuutta, pinnallista filosofiaa, pointitonta SiriAngstia, “Yliluonnollista” sekä huonoa englantia
Summary: Andromeda on poissa. Vai onko?

A/N: Nightwish - Angels fall first.
Ja SiriMedaa jälleen! Vaihteenvuoksi englanninkielistä tekstiä.
Mietin jonkin aikaa, julkaisenko tätä ollenkaan, mutta julkaisin kuitenkin.
Tämähän on aika AU:ta. Käsittääkseni Andromeda on kutosen aikaan elossa (En ole seiskaa lukenut) ja tässä ficissä Siri on taas aika nuori, n. 14 vuotias, luulisin...

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SiriMeda fic once again! (Love them). Some religion, bit philosphy, bad english, pointless SiriAngst and paranormal.
I needed to think a while do I even publish this one, cause its kind of... Bad.
Bit AU, becouse I think She's alive in seventh book, which I haven't read yet. [No spoilers, please]. Siri's mayby 14, I think.
So: Meda's gone. Or is she? Lyrics by Nightwish!


An Angelface smiles to me
Under the headline of tradegy
That smile used to give me warm

In an old picture, there’s a young, beautiful girl. She’s smiling happily, her brown eyes laughing. So full of life and happiness. So real, familiar and warm.

Farewell – No words to say
Beside the cross of your grave
And those forever burning candles

I rise my head off the picture. My eyes meet a cold, black gravestone. I stare the name in it.
Andromeda Black.
It wasn’t your time yet. It wasn’t your time to leave this place.
I place the photo carefully against gravestone and a candle among the other candles. They’re shinning their bright and warm light.
I feel nothing. I’m just sitting in snow, looking the snowflakes and asking questons from myself.

Needed Elsewhere
To remind us of the shortness of our time

How can someone’s life end so quickly? You had so many years. How can You just leave me, especially now, when I’m totally lost. I need You. More than ever.
It’s not fair, but life Isn’t fair. We don’t have much time here.

Tears laid for them
Tears of love, Tears of fear

I hide my face to hands and cry. What should I do now? Where should I go? I’m such a little child without you. You need to come back, show the right way to me. You just... can’t leave me here. I’m so scared without You.

Bury my dreams, dig up my sorrows
Oh lord, why?
The Angels fall first

I think You were too good to stay here. Good ones are the first to leave, becouse world is so cruel, with no justice.
I just want You to know I love You.
And I wanted to save You.
But I couldn’t.
Forgive me.

Not relieved by thoughs of Shangri – La
Nor enlightened by lessons of the Christ

You’re in better place now, and that should give me even some hope. But I don’t know. Do I even belive in Heaven, God, Jesus and all the other things?

I’ll never understand the meaning of the right
Ignorance lead me into the light

Becouse if there is God, why did You die?
Too much questons with no answer. Mayby I just need to stop asking and Belive.
Belive that You’re gone, belive It’s right.

I stay in the snow in front of Your grave. It’s cold. My hole world is cold and colourless.

Sing me a song
Of Your beauty
Of Your kingdom

“Sirius” I hear the voice around me. I turn around, looking to the cold winter night.
“Sirius” It whispers again. Still I see no one.
But I know the voice.
“Meda?”

A white spot’s moving in the dark. It stops just few feets away from me.
I stand up. It is You.
“Andromeda!”

Let the melodies of Your harps
Caress those whom we still need

I run to You and jump to Your neck. “Oh Meda, you came back.” I whisper. You’re smiling heart warming smile and You let me back to ground. “Do you think those who love you will never really leave you?”
I shake my head, tears still in my eyes.
You’re holding my hand tight.
“I once promise I’ll never leave you, remember?”
Ofcourse I do. I was very young, but I do remember.
“I’ll keep my promise.”
Your hand slips away, Your figure’s fading.
And I’m screaming Your name again.

Yesterday we shook hands
My friend
Today the moonbeam lightens my path
My guardian

I fall back to snow, but now smiling. I look at the sky.
No good byes. Never good byes.
You can be dead, but are You never gone?

No, You are not.



Stargazer

A/N: Niin monet lähtevät liian aikaisin.
So many leave before their time.